But Tonight, I’ll Just Keep Loving You

Yes,
I’m the most famous procrastinator
I know.

Absolutely willing to put off
Until tomorrow,
Anything
That should rightfully
Be done today.

Let’s not be precipitous…

Shall we?

Especially…

When it comes
To me losing
You.

Again and again,

I’ve read your notes
Of rejection.

I’ve heard your denials
Of love.

I’ve tasted the sting
Of your repudiation.

Everything…

Patently clear.

No reason to grasp
At the nothingness
Of our “never forever.”

No reason to believe
That I would be good enough
For you.

No reason to ever expect
A joining of our hearts.

Just move on,
Make a decision,
Be done with it,
Be done with you,

I guess.

But tonight…

I find comfort
In my procrastination.

No reason to do now,
What I can do tomorrow.

No reason to move
Too quickly and forego
That one-in-a-million
Chance to win you back.

No.

I’ll just sit here,
Tonight,
And try to smile
While I fight back the tears,

Knowing how desperately
I need you,

And want you,

And yes…

How much I love you…

Still.

I’ll just do my best tonight,
To be that professional procrastinator
I know so well.

I can forget about you tomorrow…

But tonight,

And tomorrow night,

And for years after that…

I’ll just keep loving you.

 

© 2018 W. C. Stacia, Jr.

47 thoughts on “But Tonight, I’ll Just Keep Loving You

      1. That’s so kind of you Tanya…and I’m so grateful for your thoughts. I just want to find a way to connect, and share feelings with others. Evoking, hopefully, fundamental human responses to experience that all of us…I believe…confront in our lives.

        Just my thoughts…

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  1. Love it!!
    There’s a lot of truth here..
    Love.. like I’ve said before is one of those emotions you just can’t change or will away. There’s really no logic behind it.
    I think everyone at some point has been in a situation like this before..

    Great writing !! 😊

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