If Only…

Fighting…

Fighting so much
Pain now.

The emptiness
Of the moment
Only serves
To deepen
The emotional wound.

Facing this
Challenge
Isolated,

Only serves
To amplify
The echo
Of remorse
And struggle
To move forward.

It is in these moments
Of weakness,
I feel so vulnerable,
So unworthy,
So at risk,

Wanting so desperately
For safe harbor,
For comfort,
For some sense
Of a future,
Beyond the avulsing
Now.

But even in
This time of desolation
And despair,
I’m confronted
Not only with the injury,

But I sense the remedy
As well…

You.

How is it
That your eyes
Provide such safety
And refuge?

How is it
That your touch
Offers such salve
To my wounds?

How is it
That your embrace
Takes me
To a place of such
Miraculous healing?

Despite my current
Desolation,
And unending sadness,

I know that
There is deliverance,
So true…

So close.

If only you
Were here.

If only
I could look
Into your eyes
And see sanctuary.

If only
I could hold
Your hands in mine,
And feel freedom
From my pain.

If only,
I could draw you close,
Your body
Intertwining with mine,
Consuming the totality
Of your healing.

If only…

Β© 2018 W. C. Stacia, Jr.

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14 thoughts on “If Only…

  1. As I made my way through the timeline, I saw no Bill. I panicked. I’m addicted to your writings. There, I said it.

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    1. Hi Dorothy! I so appreciate your interest and support of my efforts…very, very special to me. I don’t begin to think that my style or subject matter is terribly polished or informed…because it isn’t. But when I first started writing, I just decided to let things go and trust that if it was meant to be, I would find a way forward and find “my voice.” (Not really sure what that means, but I guess it’s my groove.) So, I just try to capture thoughts and emotions I feel…what’s on my heart.

      Having wonderful people like you enjoy my efforts is so amazing…and I grateful, so grateful. Thank you my friend.

      Your comment was so kind and generous… and really made my day. πŸ™‚

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      1. You’re welcome. I’m glad you found your groove. It works for you. One day I’ll day mine. Maybe I should just let go. Keep’em coming.

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      2. I so agree…I think that’s what we all need to do. Just let go and trust…

        I’ll keep’em coming if you keep’em coming…that way we can both enjoy each other’s work. Deal?

        πŸ™‚

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      3. Deal my friend. πŸ‘

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      4. Deal….I’m in! πŸ™‚

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  2. Oh the longing! Oh my heart!

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    1. So glad you liked it Tara!!! Many, many thanks!!

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  3. Beautiful as always, and so sensual. “If only…” is the very voice of infatuation.

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      1. Always my pleasure, Bill.

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  4. This is such a raw and honest poem! Beautiful vulnerability. Beautiful work!

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