The Denial Of The Absolute

So…

This is going to be easy.

Doesn’t matter that
Since we first met,
I keep thinking about you.

It was just a casual connection
At a friend’s Friday function,
Nothing more.

Doesn’t matter that,
Somehow we started talking,
And strangely,
Had a similar interest
In poetry.

Nor does it matter…

At least,
That’s what I thought
When I first read
Your verse,

And then found myself
Drawn into the world
Of your words,

Every phrase,
Every twist of language,
Teasing me,
And challenging me
To read onward,

Until you owned
My mind.

No.

This will be easy.

Right?

I need neither to dwell on
Nor fixate on you.

It was just a casual encounter.

Nothing personal,
Nor impactful,
Nor directive.

I just need to assess
All of this
As emotional
Flotsam and jetsam,

The inconsequential.

But then,
Then,

I remembered the beauty
Of your smile,
On that Friday night.

Then,
Then,

I remembered how evocative you were,
How you took away my breath
When I first saw you…

How I realized in that moment,
That you,

You were,
And remain,

The most captivating,
And sassy,
And edgy woman
That I have ever

Met.

So herein lies the challenge…

My mind affirms,
That none of this matters,

But buried within,
My heart takes a different position.

What if our meeting
Was meant to be?

What if our connection
Was predestined?

What if you
Are the one…

The one for
My forever?

I could force
My mind’s position
Upon my heart…

Meeting you,
Was nothing…

Really.

But that
Would rupture reality,
Wouldn’t it?

That would lead
To an emotional wasteland.

That would suggest
That I’m not taken,
Wholly
By you.

That would be
The unequivocal

Repudiation

Of my feelings…

The raw
And wrongful rejection
Of my heart…

And deep down inside,

A lie…

And total

Denial of

The absolute.

© 2018 W. C. Stacia, Jr.

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