If I Close My Eyes

Somehow,

I hoped
And wished,
That tonight,
I could
Avoid the pain,
Of missing you.

The drink
Should help,

But

It doesn’t.

And what if
I simply try
To shutter
My heart
From this world…

No,

That fails me
Too.

The burning
Smolders.

The ache
Remains,

Unavoidable,

Inescapable.

So now,

With one last
Physical gesture
Of defiance…

I close my
Eyes,

Simply
To surround
Myself with darkness,
And obfuscation
Of the anguish.

But

Even this futile effort,
Fails me.

I still see…
And long for…

You.

Even…

Even if
I close my eyes

The hurt of me
Missing you,

Prevails.

Β© 2018 W. C. Stacia, Jr.

30 thoughts on “If I Close My Eyes

    1. Thanks Marta!! I so much appreciate your thoughts. I just had this vision of wanting so badly to escape the pain…and that led me to the “If I close My Eyes,” knowing full well it would be futile. But I liked the concept nonetheless. Maybe that’s poetic license. πŸ™‚

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  1. I can feel the pain in this one, Bill. It sucks when you try to let go of someone and move on, but the heart and mind keep bringing memories and old feelings up to the forefront. Guess all we can do is feel the pain and longing, until it subsides. This is heartfelt and beautiful, my friend… as always. πŸ™‚

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    1. Thanks Brandi…I really appreciate your thoughts, as always. Don’t know why I came up with this idea of closing my eyes to shutter the pain, but it just seemed like the perfect, last ditch effort to thwart the inevitable. Must say that it really reached me writing this. But, write we must…are you with me?

      Hope you’re having a beautiful Friday eve! πŸ™‚

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      1. You’re very welcome, Bill. What you’re feeling is normal and, trust me, when we wish to not feel the pain from missing someone, we sometimes find ourselves doing whatever we can to just numb the pain. Personally, I’d rather feel it and become intimate with the feeling because it reminds me that I’m still alive and, as long as I am alive, I have hope that better days will come. So, keep your head up, my friend. It may hurt now, but the sun will shine again for you. πŸ˜‰ Until then… write that pain out! πŸ™‚

        Thanks, my friend! I hope you have an amazing Friday eve, too! ☺️

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      2. So wise and perfectly spoken…

        And, I totally agree. There is a vibrancy in feeling pain and savoring the sweetness of hope. It does make one feel alive.

        For the record, I’m exceptionally talented at enjoying Friday eve, and Friday! It’s one of the few things I’m good at! πŸ™‚

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      3. Thank you, Bill! Yes, it definitely makes us feel alive!

        Oh, I know you are extremely talented at enjoying your Friday eves and Fridays! Will there be another night of bourbon and poetry??? 😁

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      4. Well…to be completely honest…if I can finish my company work early enough (I have my own company, so I work all day on the customer’s site then do my company work at night and on the weekends…okay, I’ve whined enough), I like to sit on my front step every night, have a drink, write poetry, and watch the sun go down. Pretty simple…but that’s my oasis…my respite.

        πŸ™‚

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      5. Haha! Hey, when you get done taking care of business, it makes you look forward to having that down time. Sounds like a peaceful and cool way to chill out at the end of the day! πŸ™‚

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      6. It is…totally. I’m being bad now in that I’m multi-tasking company work/business with poetry/WP pleasure.

        I’m weak. πŸ™‚

        But, in another 30 minutes, I’ll be out on my front step with no more work on my mind…just writing and relaxing.

        Perfect…..

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  2. So…I’m happy to report that all is now right with the world. I am on my front step on a warm, summer Washington, D.C., evening. I have my drink, and I have my sunset. All is good…and my mind is free to wander, and write.

    Beautiful.

    πŸ™‚

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      1. Thanks my friend…it was a wonderful sunset.

        Inspirational.

        Hopefully the words conveyed from my mind to my fingers over the past hour and a half will meet your expectations over the next several days.

        As always, I so appreciate your support and interest!

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    1. That was enjoyable to write! Sometimes I think that maybe I’m being a little too quirky with the word choice… but then I think…naw…I just want to have some fun with it! 😊

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